Friday, February 27, 2009

between the forest and the trees

You speak... but I'm not listening
I'm lost in between what you say and what you mean.

You are splitting words like wood
Your tongue like a knife
No good.

There's really no point in pretend
I'm old
Will not tread that path again...

Thursday, February 26, 2009


Yesterday was Ash Weds ... a simple reminder what we truly are and are not! As I looked around the room..... I thought, " There is nowhere I'd rather be than here." We are called by God to be His own... in the words of our Pastor, "We are Gods dust..." Surely, the sound of that continues to resonate in my heart... Perhaps it will be my mantra for the Lenten Season. As I begin to atone and look at what needs changing in myself, I am encouraged by todays reading. (Duet. 7:6-11)

God has done the "choosing" first-- (not the other way around) and we are chosen to be His, simply because He Loves us...

Let us pray that the reflection seen (by others) be worthy of this Faithful God who has called us to be His very own... what does it mean to be "chosen"... I'm not sure but I am sure that we've done nothing to deserve it.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Spiritual Stimulas Pkg

Oh how Time flies... whether or not one is having fun, it just rolls like a cloud on a windy day.

The benefits of having more free time these days are many but my favorite thing is curling up to a good book (ok books ) and am at liberty to stay up as LATE as I want to, YAY!
The one that is cracking my peas at the moment has been from Macrina Wiederkehr's "A Tree Full of Angels- Seeing The Holy In The Ordinary". I could write about her impact on my little world for days and days... and perhaps I will do just that, we shall see...

With everything that is going on in the world (America) today, people seem to be more apt to Pray for each other, the President (even if they didn't vote for him) and for themselves.... praying that things will soon be BETTER for us all...
Now, I would not want to suggest that the state of affairs we are living in collectively is a good thing but perhaps the struggle we face has brought us closer together in our "poverty"...
The word "poverty" in our culture is synonymous with "failure" or lower quality of life at the very least! HOWEVER, that is not the poverty that I am alluding to, today. Besides, my friends who saw "Slum Dog Millionare" said Americans do not know that level of poverty, debatable perhaps.

"When I accept my poverty, my total dependence on God, I become vulnerable and God can more easily reach me.... How often I've used my possessions to hide my poverty! I try to fill in the gnawing ache in my Life with material things. I sometimes use words to hide from my poverty... I get lost in the illusion of the importance of my words, words that begin to oppress rather than heal. Then there are times when I use my busyness to hide from my poverty. If I am in the midst of a flutter of activity I do not have to feel my poverty. I numb myself to God's Grace with my ceaseless activity..." (Macrina Wiederkehr)

The realization of my poverty has nothing to do with... "what will I eat today?" It has more to do with failing to be more charitible and less selfish. Here is why I think "fasting" is good once in awhile... "If I am too full of myself, I will NEVER find God". (p. 88 A Tree Full of Angels).

Perhaps Americans can reach out of their fears (or poverty) to once again find the One True God. Help someone just don't talk about it.

Can I hear an Amen?? :-)


Monday, February 9, 2009

Finding Gods Will...

"All A.A. progress can be reckoned in terms of just two words: humility and responsibility. Our whole spiritual development can be accurately measured by our degree of adherence to these magnificent standards."Ever deepening humility, accompanied by an ever greater willingness to accept and to act upon clear-cut obligations - these are truly our touchstones for all growth in the life of the spirit. They hold up to us the very essence of right being and right doing. It is by them that we are enabled to find and to do God's will."


It absolutely amazes me how God gave such a gift to alcoholics.... not only a way out of a seemingly "hopeless" situation.... but a Spiritual Design for Living ... that creates a new being from the inside-out. Yes, this is proof positive that our Higher Power is in Love with those who need Her the most... marginal folks on the fringe of society... She gathers us in one by one in the Fellowship of AA and other similar Spiritual Communities that are open... and this is not Religiousity at its worse, rather at its best. For many are convinced, that if Jesus Christ was walking around today in His groovy sandles and robe... He'd have not a "High Hat" ... nope, I think he'd be here telling some drunk or other.... " Easy Does It", "First Things First" and "Keep It Simple..."
ALL these places, that in the Spirit of Service and Love have done what the Almighty has asked of them.... for when "done unto the least of my brothers, you have done unto me..."

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Work and Worth

Monday the Corp. gods sent me packing along with thousands and thousands of others. The good news is they are not my GOD... and so, I'm hopeful... anticipating what God has in store for me because I believe that verse in the Bible that says God looks after each sparrow..... (Since I do not have wings and cannot live in trees,) I have to work somewhere but the point I'm making is my Divine Lover will provide... He/She always, always has.
If God knows what we need then perhaps, it is our "wants" that can get us into trouble. Isn't that why our Country is in such a state??( Greed)..

"Gods Will" is a safer bet regarding true happiness and so, I will trudge that road... wherever it leads! A road to Freedom today is "doing the footwork and leaving the results to God". .. Sr. Kathleen used to say, "move slowly but not so slowly that you stop moving!" So although there is seemingly more time for fishing and resting ... "footwork"' is a lot of work!

And yet the true Worth I have today is that I belong to the Most High (no pun intended a.a.)

The Higher Power, that I choose to call God, employs me each day with a heart full of promise and hope that I will be placed where I am most able to be of Service to others, in whatever form that will come. ;-)

"We work to become... not to acquire". --Elbert Hubbard